the battle

The battle of the 3 divas:

Who do u think is the best?

Going outing now…
The Sunday rain feels nice on my skin..

Start of Holiday after SIP

This is the first Saturday of my much awaited holiday and I went down for a quick tan before service since the sun looked quite inviting.

But much to my surprise, some british girl was having her birthday celebration at the pool and quite naturally there were hordes of caucasian girls running to and fro in front of my tanning bench. “Just my luck”, I murmured. It felt quite weird because many of them were staring at me, as if I were some alien enjoying the sun for the first time. There were about 20+ of them wearing very skimpy swimwear and they were just in their early teens. Some were even very young. They swam like some wild bay front babes, screaming and shouting in delight. LOL!! I didn`t know there were so many caucasian in my abode!

After the short, an hour plus suntan, I got ready to shower for service. Can`t be late today!

Btw last nite guys` unit retreat at Zhi Yang condo was kinnda cool. Just too bad, I had to leave early. The food was great and I love my fruit basket creation which was untouched by many:(

Why did you have to ??? I wish I were blind. But now I can see the truth. I ain`t gonna fall and hurt my head again.

SIP (last week)

This is my last week of SIP. Hope we could really do our BEST in this and enjoy afterwards!! I am sorry, gals for the pain I put you two through. I didn`t mean it. I just want us to do our best in this together, yeah ? We innit together??

Anyway, today is my PR2 presentation. Hope The Lord has mercy on me. His grace will see us through every darkest corner:)

I didn`t go for combined service and combined cg last week..:( My shepherd told me to account, so here I am ..haha.

I confessed that I were a lazy bum. I am sorry, Lord…Next week sure I will have more time for myself and you all my cg peeps!! Eggcited for the holiday

Things to do for holiday: (Hope it`ll be achieved this time)

- Gym and get buff again. At cali or True fitness?…hmmmm

- Get tanned and swim more to build broader shoulder.

- Time to catch up with the guys and my friends..

- Dine at River valley restaurant. (My last hol`s unfullfilled request)

- Sentosa card! I wanna go to sentosa often

-Work..hopefully at Sephora, my fave place! hint hint;) or some perfume/skincare department stores again. I am thinking of Lamer, La praire…wooo..my skin is gonna improve by leaps and bounds if I work there. heee~~

- still thinking…God drops me a plan..

Japanese Summer festival

This week was FUN!!

These are the things I did:

I went to the Japanese Summer festival with my Japanese friend on Saturday afternoon. Thank God for him cos this event was a once in a year thing and it lasts for only one day every year. He told me that it was actually the Japanese Summer Harvest Festival and it was traditionally held once a year in Japan. Here, it was held at Japanese Primary School at Changi. The school was like so Japanese and everything feels very japanese for me! Even the tables and chairs, they imported from Japan. I looked at the toilet. OMG, it even looked like it was from one of those Japanese school I saw in drama serials. The whole school looked as if they actually built it in Japan and imported the whole building here. WOW!! I should have taken more pictures…

There was also an ongoing Japanese ritual dance and people were relaxing on the grass just like what they usually do in their home country minus the red cherry blossoms of course because our climate doesn`t support their growth.
The Hakatas and the kimonos that the people were wearing just added to the ambience. I just felt like I was teleported to Japan that afternoon!!

The food was not like those Sakae Sushi food you get from supermarket here. It was like sooo good. Like the real thing. You should have come, man! The beer was cool and the drinks were like $1 each. should have gotten more!!

We ate quite a lot. I had a green tea ice cream which was creamy and milky. It was sexy. I love the food there!

Let the peeeeektures do the talking!!

listen

I asked myself this question: “If he has no time for God, what makes me think he`ll have time for me?”

Food for thought:)

Thank God for making me feel better.

There are people who care about me more than you do. And I am sooo moving on.

Life in school…after the mass

These are the few things that I wanna learn this few weeks:

-Taking innitiatives

-Confidence

-Charisma

-Spiritual weapons and how you can use them

Answering life`s riddles like this:

“Why the person that you like doesn`t like you, whereas the one that you don`t like, likes you ???”

Anybody wants to attempt to answer this question?

Anyway, ppl.  School has been quite boring.  So here is what I do. The school compound looks as if an atomic bomb has just exploded right in the middle a few days ago. Not many people are seen around and even if there are people, they would be hiding in sheltered places for fear of its radiation.

Old You

I prayed and it was answered.

All was not in vain.

Thank God for you.

I know you are starting to change slowly now even it it takes a lifetime. I prayed for you and I know that God is doing miracles in you now. I have seen that happen. Thanks for inspiring your friend and ME!! I read that!! And I am starting to see the old you now! I really want to see the old You badly. I miss that person so much. I know that one day, you`re gonna come to your realization and come back to God for good. And I am hoping we could work together on that. To inspire each other and others.

Don`t fall back on something that is ephemeral. Something that you know is going to be a momentary pleasure. But search for that eternal joy and achievements in Christ alone. I will be your shepherd in this journey. If you ever wanna give me that rod. I know there`s something bigger in you. And I have been wanting to see that. My old you. Come back to the Father.

For I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord…

I know what I want in life now. And I know that God has something BIGGER in store for me. I have caught a glimpse of it. And I won`t tell you what it is. “Is it me?? is it… ??” You might be asking me, as if anticipating for an answer. And I won`t tell you cos I can`t. I am forbidden to say anything for now If I do, it`ll disappear. I can only question God what is it.

“For He has sent me gifts from heaven, not one but several and not of earthly origins.” MMM09

I saw and received those gifts. If u wanna know, I`ll tell u what those are. It`s like an early 21st birthday present for me. And God have it to me not because it is gonna be my birthday soon or what. But because He simply loves me:)

Actually, some of those gifts were already in me..but I was just too blind to see them. I was too blinded by something else that is ephemeral.

I did a mistake by looking through a telescope when all the while I couldn`t see what were around me. I tried to see tooooo far ahead. And even though I could see IT, there was no point because I couldn`t see what were going around me NOW. 

————————————————————————————————————————————————-One thing that I learnt and heard from God this week is:

I realised that I have somewhat “backslided” a little a few weeks ago. Not because I often skipped CG, Doctrine classes, prayer meetings, after service dinners, etc.. HAHA. C`mon friends, that is certainly not the only indication that I have backslided. Don`t tell me you`re all feeling holy and good just because you attended every cg and church activities that are available. That is wrong already. See the intention of your heart and understand why are you doing all these? Is it out of purity and love or PARTLY out of obligation? Two very different things altogether.  

I confessed that I have sort of drifted away, just not because of those And I just wanna be honest about it cos I believe people who love me can help me:)

I had had honest doubts about God`s great plans for me and only after I had honestly declared that to Him, he whispered into my ear that He still wants me back for good. He won`t let me off so easily. He wants me back cos He has something good in store for me. Something that I can`t tell you guys now but ask him again and again..So that when it happens, you will see that the Lord is good indeed. And people on the street will start to praise His name and goodness.

 I wanted to point out my main mistakes and weaknesses here so that all may see and I may be corrected:

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 So many!!! arhhhhh!!!! Whatever I wrote in that black paper that was actually not meant to be disclosed, I write them here now so that all of you may see. I am not ashamed! I need a change in life cos I am tired of living this kind of life. Cos to me, this is not life anymore. Familiar with it? Can u help me? I wanna see the Son on man descending down from the clouds again. If u know what I am talking about. I am telling you all these so that if u see a change in me, you will know that it is because of the Lord, not myself:) Let God do his work in me first so that all may testify to His reality and goodness. Let me be His medium of His wonders and miracles, so that ALL may see and declare that the Lord is indeed Good. =DDD

I want to invite YOU to do the same. And I pray that you might be saved one day. Together with me. I did this because Jesus has loved me first.  

“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. ” Jeremiah 29:11

Gotta have faith in the Lord`s plans.

You too, friend.

God has a great gift awaiting for me to have a full faith first before he sends it down to me. And so will you have it too,

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Cg today was fun. Potluck! We got chicken, ginger beer, meat and more meat. LOL!

Obsessed- Mariah Carey

A nice video that someone recommended to me

The last part is so cute la. LOL

NDP 09

Hey people, sorry..I know I have neglected my blog for quite sometime now. I know I shouldn`t do that and deprive my blog of its usual high viewership. lol. ^^

So many things have happened this past few days. Let me recap those important and momentous events that are still fresh in my photographic memory. Lol.. Btw, talking about photographic memory, many people have told me that I might have it which would be cool to have. There are signs that show that I do actually. Well, it might not be very important to me now, but maybe in the future, who knows. There are some disadvantages of having it too. Like, I can`t seem to forget sad sad events that took place in my life. Cos I could never stop replaying those events in my mind so vividly. I could remember the t-shirt my dear friend wore.. the colour, the texture. I could recall how his expression look like in my mind when he was talking to me. And I could even recall the creases on his pants. That is scary. Can I take it away?  Advantages? Hmm.. I could remember in vivid details pages and pages of human anatomy diagrams that I could use for my biology exam. And I could make a very good film director.

Anyway, this week has been a chase. After my teacher chased me for my MP binded volume, I could finally take a deep breathe. Thank God. He has saved me in so many ways unthinkable from …u know…

Fri had a great day playing badminton and swimming with you. It was cool.. I like to make you exercise and sweat to be healthy. It made me feel so happy and useful.  It made me recall the same incident that happened last year. We were still young and new. I Wanted to talk about it more with you to relight our hearts. But I didn`t get the chance to. Maybe you didn`t realise how important it is.. or damn my photographic memory…I think too much.

Saturday, I didn`t really think too much. I just went to church and had dinner and that`s all. I went home. I realised I am feeling empty. I need to come back to God. I need to trust in Him more. I know our time will come.

Sunday. It was a tragic day for me. Hmmm…You know everything. But NDP was seriously fun. I walked endlessly from raffles Place to nowhere…hoping to find the source of it all. My joy and happiness. My pride. To be a “Singaporean”. I want to be one because I don`t want to ever be far from where my heart is.

Monday..waiting for things to happen..

Frozen Flower

I watched Frozen Flower that fateful night and something quite unexplainable happened in me. It was completely the best movie I had watched in years and it was probably the one movie that managed to stir up something in me. Previously I gave not much thoughts to the slap stick movies I watched. But not this one.

It`s not because the movie revolves around you know what. But because the deep meaning that is embedded in it is so strong. It is just unfathomably deep. It really explains to me about the real existence of the Power of Love that is seen at its most tangible state in the movie.

“Is that Love I heard?” asked the empreror quizzically.

To be continued..