Run

I am not perfect and I knew it when I realized that I had let you guys see my bad side on Friday. I may not be as influential and magical like David Foster, Andrew Llyod Webber and Franco Dragone, but I am serious when it comes to MUSIC, well, at least, MY MUSIC. Some people may see me as a perfectionist, especially when it comes to my music, and my close friends know this. I am not trying to be a professional freak, we are expected to be if you dare to call yourself a real musician. And I guess you would agree with me, serious musicians out there..^^ . If you`re serious about music, you would know what I am talking about .  On a less serious note, I just want to apologize if anyone of you have to bear grudges against me because of this flaw of mine. It`s just who I am. Who I am when I am one with my music. During my musicals, choirs and performing days, my heart was often very restless whenever I was watching my fellow performers practice on rehearsal days. I`d hate myself if I ever hit a wrong note, even a semitone off would send shivers down my liver…and I`ll not be able to forgive myself after that. LOL. I guess I need to change..:)

Talking about praise and worship.. I know that It`s the heart that matters during PnW. But, let`s think of it this way, IF I suck during my PnW, will it affect the others? I am afraid it will. I hope You know what I mean . Sorry, shepherd, guys.. sorry Jesus…ok Ok, let`s not dwell on these things too much…the world would be a much lovelier place if we all forgive and forget  

Like what Ps Jeff said during service. “The person who means a lot or is closest to you is the one that can hurt you the most.” OH…this is so true.. 

I am sorry if I made you think I was angry with you, I was MORE displeased with myself rather..

Sooo, to show that I am sincerely sorry, and also, please do forgive me as well with this lovely song..

Peace out..

“A thinker like me can never find a peace of mind”

LOVE

I can choose to either blog now or tml…but why the wait? I think I`ll just blog now and make 46 people feel blessed, happy and entertained today.  It is so soo much worth it

This week had me deep in thoughts. So many thoughts that keep me so restless and feeling blue.. thoughts about SIP groupings, incoming term tests, quizes and projects, love, the ministry, the people, friends,…the list goes on and on….wait!! did I say love?? YES!! LOVE!!! how can I let it pass… How I wish I could forsee the future so that I`ll only have the remedy to every situation. Life is tough and can also be very boring and mundane. To me, LOVE is the only thing in the world that can make my life so worthwhile and satisfying in this broken world. It is the ONLY thing that is definitely worth living for…agree people? If not, then why are 97.841856287366218815351133313569% of the songwriters and poet in this world today write about LOVE, when they can`t actually SEE or touch it??? But one true thing is, you can FEEL LOVE. When people are fighting and stuff, you`ll be wondering and singing, “Where`s the Love?” And that is just one facet of LOVE.

I am refering to another type of LOVE here…The Love that is just shared between two individuals..dun care whether it`s the LOVE that is shared between a man and a woman, two men or even two females!!!!! LOVE is sooooo universal and it has no boundaries. It has no limit!!!! for LOVE is GOD who is outside time and everything. Sometimes we could also say that Love has no understanding. For God is beyond everything and that His understanding has NO limit.  Love is a little piece of heaven..something that is so special that even the gods would envy..TEEHEE. Something heaven-sent. Like a MANdate from heaven. Now it is entirely up to you as to how you can OWN this little piece of heaven in this world. Now, as you take a breather, Imagine this scene….and don`t let your dream and fantasy limit you ~~~~~~ AAAAAWWWWWWwwwww…..

The sky is pale purplish and orangey in colour and every passing second, it`s getting darker and darker-the colour of your lover`s hair.  A steady gush of cool sea breeze is blowing gently at your lover`s face and his/her hair seems to be dancing with the wind as you gaze at his/her face. While the sun is finally setting down, it cathes a final glimpse on your lover`s eyes and you wonder to yourself if the sun rose in his/her eyes every morning. As you slowly hold his/her hand, starting with your fingers first, two pair of shy eyes finally meet for the longest time as two hearts beat as ONE. Admiring every inch of his/her face, you could smell the sweetest scent of the ocean in his/her neck. You`re that close to him/her, almost kissing each other, but you decide to build up the moment and hold back for just a little longer, anticipating his/her response while looking and pondering if the rose is as red as his/her lips. Every second you have together seem to etch for eternity. And you would gladly exchange every possible worldly desires just to spend a fraction of a second with him/her. Now, still gazing into the warm glow of the golden sun in his/her face, you suddenly catch a glimpse of his/her cutest smile ever imaginable, that you thought it had to be an angel smiling at you. A second has just passed and you`re imagining what it would feel to feel his/her warm breaths on your lips. And you bend closer and closer….lips almost touching….yeah..yeah…a little bit more………and……………………………The earth seems to tremble when you two finally share IT. As soon as you realise the intense and incredible passion that is building up and increasing exponentially, spinning without control, you take a gasp of breath before plunging for a second heavenly treat. Now, touching the back of his/her neck, you feel his/her soft and musky-smelling hair in your two hands that are trembling with immense eggcitement and passion. You are barely a minute into it and you are starting to feel the heavens divide. As you two dwell into the unstoppable and intense piece of heaven that you are experiencing, you can`t help but thank the maker who has made it all SO…

If anyone of you here is saying….no no…that`s a sin…I can`t and bla bla bla,…… you`re denying something, my friend…you`re denying the very Love that God has put in you as it was intended to be from the very beginning. Imagine waking up next to his/her warm carress every morning. That is heaven every morning, my friend. A little piece of Heaven you can OWN in this broken world…

Fur dich, mein alle,

liebe, Marco…

cali

I felt like I needed to account to someone real badly, cos I know I am hurting myself more and more if I don`t…It`s a sad world out there…and even thogh my intention is LOVE, ppl might see it as EEEWWW…LOL

Thank God for the customers that he sent for me on the 3 days that I worked. In Raffles, there`s this guy called Caleb, who actually came down from his office in Tanjong Pagar just to be my customer…yay! And on Sat, the club manager pushed us so hard that we got ourselves almost 8 customers each…that is a lot of achievement. Sunday I got two of my gym friends who came down and toured the club for my sake…Thank you guys, little things like these indeed make a boy like me over the moon..$_$

And the next best thing about working in Cali is that I always get to gym and work my chest out really well. Just feeling those little little sore and pain in your chest and abs during and after each session of workouts are like out of this world!!! I simply luv to torture myself like this.. thank God for the pain!!!

With term test looming over me like a heavy dark cloud filled with imminent danger, I can`t help but think about … I hate studying but then it`s a responsibility. I hate everything I have to be responsible for, like results and stuff. If only I were studying theology, exams wouldn`t have to feel that BAD. haha. And I`ll feel good all the time for sure…no stress no stress no STRESs.

Mcg

Yesterday msg was a blast!!! Somehow I didn`t quite agree with Lem that it was a failure…:( How can it be, ppl?? We all did our best, yup yup…Yes, to put it simply: we DID NOT fail , we just HAVE NOT SUCCEEDED…….YET…positive thinking peace out..

Today I gotta go work again even though my muscles feel like they`re gonna disintegrate. But…hehe, I luv the feeling of muscle fatigue. Somehow it feels really really good to me. ^^  Hope God can always give me this sensation whenever I work out. Motivate me to pump bigger chew know…LOL. For those of chew who are gym bunnies, chew know what I mean..hehe 

Anyway, yep…a long day today…I am so looking forward to JuMping later again!!!!

I`ll jump till I have no more joy in me (quoted from Glen) …

okok, my chest are calling me….gotta go and gym real hard again after that!!! and……hmmmmm

So happy to see my sexy chatbox now brimming with cute little tags……LOL. Thanks to you cute and hot guys and gals..you`ll be rewarded $_$

But for those of you who hasn`t yet understood the joy and extreme happiness it brings to me to see my chat box sooo alive, you can click on this link to have access to it instantly!!! Yessss, I said INSTANTLY!!!, u lazy a**es…LOL…jkjk  http://marcomarcusx.cbox.ws/   so no more exuses alr now..

OR, simply copy and paste the link above to your browser, if u can`t access from the link (sorry for repeating myself) pant pant…thirsty.. *U*

Haha..yeah…and this makes me think of something quite familiar…lol “Do unto others like how you want others to do unto you” hint *nudge*

Btw, going on the Singapore flyer to emo later..at least if Iam alone, I`ll be getting higher and closer to Jesus:) ALONE…..actually think about it, it kindda makes sense also wat..God is the one who gave me the ticket..I mean, if you have read my previous post about last Sat, you would be able to understand and follow what I am going to say next… %)

Ok, here`s how it goes..Truthfully, I never expected to get the Singapore flyer ticket backfrom my mum after ‘forsaking’ her last Sat. She was damn angry and stuff. LOl. And I also thought that once you forgo ur ride, that`s it, it can`t be used anymore…But chew know what??  A wonderful and unexpected thing happened!!! Somehow somewhat, out of the blue, I found out from my mum later that the ticket that I didn`t use last Sat could still be used by this week!!!! Praise the Lord, man!!!!!!!

You see, if you give your ALL to Him, even if it means being sacrificial to your own convinience and happiness, I can assure you that He will not shortchange you!!! lesson learnt

But the catch is this..I only have one tix and I can`t possibly persuade anyone to buy another $52 ticket to accompany me.. so I guess I`ll just  take whatever treat God has given me.. Take it as a date with Jesus on the romantic nite skies, overlooking our beautiful city skyline.. And I`ll definitely be singing like some crazy singer inside the capsule to Him (only if I am the only dude there, and I think it would cos it is weekday ) Eggcited to see Him later ^^

Shopping!!!

Thank God for this wonderfully made day:) I got to have a nice conversation with X in the canteen with sy. It`s a rare privilege and I`ll try to minister to this person as best as I could.. and I think I almost succeeded. Bombard me with any crazy questions you can think of and I`ll have the answers for you!! LOL. Promise…XX

Then I went to Wisma to have my hair cut and thank God for the hair director!! He was sooo soo good…Owe him my gorgeous-looking mane..lol. And Oh Boy!! I just realised that I have never ventured further than Plaza Singapura and Centrepoint since Lem started to influence my shopping habbit and style!!!LOL. HAHA

By now, I think you all should have realized that there are certainly so much better and more interresting ways and places to have our informal cg and mcg…lol. No offence to anyone, but yeah, after a while, I seriously think that a mere outing in TM, CS and PS won`t get us eggcited like dogs like how we used to in the past..hint hint… How about an outing with cute little wanna-be pilots in Seletar airport?? or tea with the president, anyone??? or just a relaxing and oh so romantic walk at the beach in Sentosa?? Think about how we could get each other so eggcited…LOL

And after that, like a frog in a well who has never seen the world, I went wild with the idea of shopping and more shopping!! yippeee. After shopping like a real shopper, I decided it`s time to have my relaxing manicure and pedicure …LOL…kidding!! By golly!!  

I smelt countless scents and caressed many beautiful and sexy pima cotton in one day, enough to make Lem scream and faint…OH dear me!! I am obsessed..LOL

A half day of shopping spent all by myself really has made me a much saner boy. At least I won`t have Lem screaming at me, (Lemmuel`s accent) “Mad one ah this boy…smell so much perfume!!!!!” Haha….LOLLOL

Joking joking la shepherd…don`t eggry..=p

Engine Econs

YAY!! So happy to finally see my chatbox inhabited by some soulz.. I promise to give you all a treat if you all tag more often and make this blog of mine the most visited blog of the year..lol. Gonna be the happiest blogger ever in this sickening world!! aha

The chatbox is actually in my BLOGROLL, all the way on top…^  the very first link!!! Or u can also click the link http://marcomarcusx.cbox.ws/  from here OR simply copy and paste it to your browser. Oh dear God, I am like teaching a bunch of primary school kids on an E-learning module..LOL

Now I know seriously who` s been visiting my blog regularly…hmmmmm….hoho

Looking forward to haircut later in the afternoon. And I wrote this piece of something while killing time during my Oh so boring lab…Is this how some of u feel about some of your most hated modules in school ??? LOL

EngineEcons

I hate Engineering Economy,

Taught by the one and only Mr Weeky.

I see him twice weekly.

Enough to get me green and sickly,

And I still have to read the text by Fabricky.

I guess I am just very unlucky.

Oh please get my arse outta here quickly!!!

 

ps: Just a cute little poem for u, Mr Weeky, no offence to you (If u ever have to read this)

I know what love is

God works in so mysterious and wonderful ways beyond our understanding and comprehension. And I have seen Him at work today. I really did.

Someone is gonna blog this before me and this ain`t gonna stop me from testifying about His love for His children, even if it means having me to do it again and again. I`ll just die from joy in the process…

I am so happy for someone`s life. How it really means a lot to me and my growth..Thank you Jesus for this person

This song can almost be a christian song, and it`s for my Father in heaven

I was forgotten
Until you called my name
Lost in the shadows
Until you shined your light my way
Now I believe again
In all my dreams again
I’m wide eyed and innocent
Those doubting days
Are so far away and oh

I will fall
And you will catch me always
Time has taught me this
I will fly
And you’ll be there to guide me
Straight up to my heart’s highest wish
I feel you close to me
And I know what love is

Now there’s no mountain
Too high for me to climb
No ocean so wide
That I could not reach the other side
Now I believe in me
Cause you live and breather in me
And nothing can come between
We are one star
No nigh can darken, Oh

I will fall
And you will catch me always
Time has taught me this
I will fly
And you’ll be there to guide me
Straight up to my heart’s highest wish
I feel you close to me
And I know what love is

It’s an unspoken thing
A quiet opening
There are no words that can go that deep
But I know
I know

I will fall
And you will catch me always
Time has taught me this
I will fly
And you’ll be there to guide me
Straight up to my heart’s highest wish
I feel you close to me
And I know what love is

Singapore Flyer

I have witnessed God`s unfailing love and promises being fulfilled on Saturday night. I just had this immense urge to blog about this last night but I came home rather late. This morning when I woke up, I just knew that I had to do it for I would not be able to rest well if anything happens to me today. LOL 

I had actually promised my parents that I would follow them on the Singapore flyer that Saturday night. After much persuasion, I promised them that I would meet them after the service for the ride. I was seriously eggcited about it..hehe

I was quite burdened this whole week about something, studies, parents objections, friends, church, etc…so many things on my poor mortal head. And I lifted everything up to God. I prayed and believed that everything would turn out to be okay, despite the problems that I am facing right now, I knew that I have received it.

It was too much of a coincidence that everything turned out wonderfully well on Sat. :) We were all blessed by the fantastic preacher that spoke words of wisdom which confirmed that God is indeed real to those new believers. He derived these facts and beliefs from the complex biology and the astronomy stuffs which made us marvel at God`s glorious creations. From the vast and never ending universe to the smallest molecules in a human body, everything points to God!! WOW, talk about ATP, DNA and Galaxies..

The real coincidence was that on Sat, I saw that there were so many people who came and attended service!! Wow, felt really encouraged to see all that. So many new contacts came for this service and several others who really touched my heart. I didn`t think all of them who came knew that we were going to have such an annointed service that night. And it was such a coincidence that they all came at the right time!! Towards the end of the service, I was so glad to see one more new contact giving his life to Jesus!!! And I was also so happy that God has moved and worked in His wonderful ways in someone`s heart:)

Then suddenly my mum called, “OMG, not now pls..” I was hoping my mum would call to tell me that the singapore flyer ride had been cancelled or something. But no, from her tone of voice, I knew I had to leave and meet my parents now:( I left, feeling so bad because I knew that there were something left that I had to do that night. I knew that if I left for the ride, I wouldn`t be able to minister and fellowship to these people. I wouldn`t be able to let God use me to do something that night and I wouldn`t be able to rest well..

I also weighed the consequences that I would face if I decided to cancel the ride with my parents. But deep in my heart, I knew I had to do it. God wants to use me, no matter insignificant my role is. I know it isn`t in His eyes  

After I left the service, I called my mum. Yes, as expected, she was fuming mad.. cos I was so late. And I thought to myself again, if I left for the ride, I would perhaps be enjoying myself up there. But what about the others??  what about my shepherd and my friends?? This enjoyment on the ride would perhaps last for only 30 mins. But the sense of fulfillment that I would feel if I had stayed on with my friends will last a whole lifetime..=DD The ride only cost around $29 and that kind of money was just so not worth it compared to His promises of love. Yep, and I was glad I made the right decision:) Really…last night was the best and happiest Sat I ever had!!! And I gotta wish CM Happy Birthday too!!! LOL 

Zhu ni Sheng re kuai le, CM!!!

father

Had a cool day today. But somehow something felt missing in me.. I knew I wasn`t feeling complete. Father, I pray that you will be the one that fills the emptiness and void in my heart. I am still patiently waiting for the one you`re gonna send me..:) Bless those that persecute me and forgive those that sin against me for they do not know what they are doing…I know that you`re gonna restore your kingdom again.. I take my hands on the wheel, Take the steering wheel of your vessel, Father:) Into your hands, I command my All.

ilead

Last night I was a real bad boy..hehe. Yeah…chew know what I mean..

I knew my Mum prohibitted me from going to the ilead campaign meeting thing on Tuesday night, but I decided to risk my life. I knew I had to be there despite the fact that my dad was also coincidentally flying here that night. To sum it all, I was quite worried. To make matters worse, my mum also called me during the meeting. And I was doing my intro to everyone. what a real coincidence!! LOL

I had to leave halfway during the meeting and that was because I had to be at the airport so as not to arouse any suspicion from my mum, incase some of you are wondering why.

At least I left without much regrets. I felt refreshed from the worship experience..and best of all, I didn`t miss the highligt of the night: Mr Darren`s screaming game!! woohooo!! He really did a good job, man..haha. Made everyone laugh and stuff. And his high voice…HAHA.

Even though I didn`t really play the piano for the meeting, I felt little disappointment. Yeah, I guess I am just consoling myself..Next time there`s always another God given chance!! Haha. Btw for some people who haven`t realised yet, I am actually quite easy to please..:) And when it comes to matters of the heart, I don`t really ask for much for fear or painful disappoinment. I`ll be content enough just to have that person by my side. In my presence.. And most importantly, don`t deny my love.. This is All I ask for..

Yeap, so the night was overall a cool night. I got to meet my mum for some Popeye at the airport (OMG!! real sinfull in both sense of the word) Haha.

Okayz, Till later, peeps

Sunday evangelism

Sunday was a blast. The talk was like so awesome!! And the healing part at the end was so touching…well, at least for me

Then after that, we really put all what we`ve learnt into practice..wooo!! We went and invaded Parkway parade and combed every nook and cranies for every unsuspecting ‘victims’….LOL. HAHA. The hunt was more than eggciting…We were on a serious man hunt!!! ALL for Jesus and Jesus for ALL!!!

Lem really challenged and ‘pushed’ me to share with a few people. Thank God, if not for him, I would never know and experience the feeling of joy that overwhelmed me when I was sharing Christ. Somehow somewhat, the once quite shy and timid boy became a man of conviction. God`s second miracle this week..

I was just letting the holy spirit speak through me. The same powerful holy spirit that was in Jesus some 2000 years ago when He preached the gospel to the people. It was incredible when I realized that I had lost all inhibitions and any feelings of shyness. Nothing was holding me back no more!!! I just shared Jesus with confidence and conviction!!! In fact, Jesus was the Word and He was the Word I spoke…to these people. And I am not afraid because I am telling the Truth. The Word. Jesus. God.

We got 2 really responsive contacts!! Even though they didn`t immediately accept Christ at that moment we were sharing, I was cocksure that their heart was opened up a little bit more by our Words. We know we`re planting a mustard seed in each and every people`s heart that we softened that very afternoon. We were so glad that we were even bombarded by so many questions from these people. Questions that really spurred their interest in Jesus more and more. I shared to a boy called Darren, I almost cried halfway. LOL. Not because I was afraid..but I was touched by his openness and enthusiasm about the Word. I almost cried when I shared to him about how Jesus has placed wonderful people in my life. People like my shepherd and All of You!! because it was so true. Even though the boy didn`t receive Jesus then, I was so glad that I had shared to him. May God touch his heart in a special way:)

After that, someone really lifted my moods by leaps and bounds..haha

Yea…chew know who…LOL

Thank God for that chew know who…:) ^^

Healing power of God

Wow!! my blog has indeed become a lively place!! Haha. You people may not have noticed it, but I have, judging from the stats which tells me that about 40 bloggers and taggers visit my sexy blog everyday!! Millions of thanks to those who actively tag and follow my posts everyday…LOL. I can tell u, it means a lot to the writer..really..=DD

Given this wonderful fact, I realize one thing. I can create my blog to be a platform that reaches out to many people, testifying about God!! You see, basically, u can do evangelism every now and then and everywhere u like..As long as you have the heart, you have every authority to spread the love of God and nobody is gonna stop u!! not even the devil!! for in His holy name, God has permitted and given you every authority on this earth to spread about His exemplifying act of Love..

Two great things happened on Sat.. 2 ppl converted and one of them is an Indo!! WOW!!! Is God telling me something?

One more act of God`s love.. Just wanna share with you one real account of His power of healing that happened to me this Saturday..

I was feeling flu-ish and my nose simply wasn`t in the best state on Saturday. I couldn`t even breathe properly and I was sneezing and stuff the whole afternoon leading to service. I was telling God, “You know father, I am quite sad and worried that I wouldn`t be able to sing praises and worship to you tonight, because of this flu I have..” And He told me, “Why focus on things you can`t do, when you know there are things you can do?” This is real. He was simply telling me to rely on his power. I was already praying for this flu bug to go away but it was still irritating me through out the service..why why WHY ???

When I was singing during the praise and worship, my voice felt ‘blocked’ and stuff. Simply not something nice….LOL. But thank God, the songs were all on the low registers on Sat so I had no trouble hitting any notes, but still.. Thank you Father, U knew your son couldn`t possibly hit those high registers with those stuffy nose..haha. (grunting sexily on the background) LOL

It came to a point where I really couldn`t sing anymore. My nose was ‘drippy’ and distruptive to my whole voice to coordinate well together and I prayed for healing again. At last, I surrended. Ok, I am not singing anymore..  I stupidly surrendered to the illness.. Noooooway!!! Then after I went back from the toilet, I sat behind with my grand shepherd. Soon, the worship team went on stage again and God told me this last words, “Sing out loud, forget about the voice, forget about the raspy voice, you sing for me, not them..and I`ll make YOU SING!!!” And true enough, I forgot about my flu and I concentrated fully on Him. After I said the sinners prayers like what we do every now and then, and before I knew it, my flu bug was nowhere to be found. I was completely healed. Thank you Father..Love ya!!

This tells of something really powerful. God was present and He was sitting back there during the service that night where He moved and claimed those converts` hearts..He was there when he healed me too

I still remember the song we sang again and again this Sat..

“I’ll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the one who gave it all 
I’ll stand, my soul longs to you surrender it all 
I am is yours”

How can I keep from singing

When things start to get a bit out of control, God has shown me his love and mercy by putting things aside for me. One thing I should be thankful to God for is this.. I was quite worried and concerned that I wouldn`d be able to play up to expectation for Friday`s ilead campaign night even if we had practises on Thurs and Fri. It was a bit of a rush..and I was praying so that somehow somewhat God will start to tidy the week up for me. And it happened!! \o/! Last night after cg, I was informed that the Friday`s ilead was postponed to Tues!!! =DD Thank God for his divine intervention!! hehe…At least I don`t have to worry about Fri now!! Jesus really takes it from me…The wheel off my hand…

One more testimony for u Jesus!!

How can I keep from singing your praise!!

Take it take it from me……Save me from this road I am on..

With praise and worship practices leading to Friday`s ilead campaign, Irresistible temptations as well as matters and problems of the heart, I am hoping I won`t break down along the way. Why is everybody suddenly giving me all these?? And all at the same time somemore!! LOL. It`s not that I don`t like it, but then sometimes we`re just mere mortals..If you give Jesus all of these stuffs, I am sure he will be able to handle them with ease. He said he could build “this temple in three days.” !!! 

What more can I ask for? Thank God for the surprises and the opportunities though:) It seems that surprises and weird things happen to me almost all the time!! My life is so damn complicated..and interresting =DD LMAO

Phew…I take a break..

Jesus, take the wheel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ich liebe dich

Oooppss, I just realised I have not eaten any proper meal since morning till now. Not even a proper bread or any candy, titbits, let alone rice. My mind must be troubled or something.. Burdened by thoughts.. But strangely, the more I feel burdened, the more I don`t feel like eating. LOL 

So weird la this boy..

I wanna say how much I live for u to someone. And don`t ask who…I smack ur butt if u do…LOL

Ich liebe dich und ich hoffe dass du mich liebst auch.