I know what I want in life now. And I know that God has something BIGGER in store for me. I have caught a glimpse of it. And I won`t tell you what it is. “Is it me?? is it… ??” You might be asking me, as if anticipating for an answer. And I won`t tell you cos I can`t. I am forbidden to say anything for now
If I do, it`ll disappear. I can only question God what is it.
“For He has sent me gifts from heaven, not one but several and not of earthly origins.” MMM09
I saw and received those gifts. If u wanna know, I`ll tell u what those are. It`s like an early 21st birthday present for me. And God have it to me not because it is gonna be my birthday soon or what. But because He simply loves me:)
Actually, some of those gifts were already in me..but I was just too blind to see them. I was too blinded by something else that is ephemeral.
I did a mistake by looking through a telescope when all the while I couldn`t see what were around me. I tried to see tooooo far ahead. And even though I could see IT, there was no point because I couldn`t see what were going around me NOW.
————————————————————————————————————————————————-One thing that I learnt and heard from God this week is:
I realised that I have somewhat “backslided” a little a few weeks ago. Not because I often skipped CG, Doctrine classes, prayer meetings, after service dinners, etc.. HAHA. C`mon friends, that is certainly not the only indication that I have backslided. Don`t tell me you`re all feeling holy and good just because you attended every cg and church activities that are available. That is wrong already. See the intention of your heart and understand why are you doing all these? Is it out of purity and love or PARTLY out of obligation? Two very different things altogether.
I confessed that I have sort of drifted away, just not because of those
And I just wanna be honest about it cos I believe people who love me can help me:)
I had had honest doubts about God`s great plans for me and only after I had honestly declared that to Him, he whispered into my ear that He still wants me back for good. He won`t let me off so easily. He wants me back cos He has something good in store for me. Something that I can`t tell you guys now but ask him again and again..So that when it happens, you will see that the Lord is good indeed. And people on the street will start to praise His name and goodness.
I wanted to point out my main mistakes and weaknesses here so that all may see and I may be corrected:
PridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePridePride
LustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLustLust
GreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreedGreed
So many!!! arhhhhh!!!! Whatever I wrote in that black paper that was actually not meant to be disclosed, I write them here now so that all of you may see. I am not ashamed! I need a change in life cos I am tired of living this kind of life. Cos to me, this is not life anymore. Familiar with it? Can u help me? I wanna see the Son on man descending down from the clouds again. If u know what I am talking about. I am telling you all these so that if u see a change in me, you will know that it is because of the Lord, not myself:) Let God do his work in me first so that all may testify to His reality and goodness. Let me be His medium of His wonders and miracles, so that ALL may see and declare that the Lord is indeed Good. =DDD
I want to invite YOU to do the same. And I pray that you might be saved one day. Together with me. I did this because Jesus has loved me first.
“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. ” Jeremiah 29:11
Gotta have faith in the Lord`s plans.
You too, friend.
God has a great gift awaiting for me to have a full faith first before he sends it down to me. And so will you have it too,
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Jason 2:40 am on October 24, 2009 Permalink |
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